Fear of white space

I am a calendar guy.  Back in 8-5 days I read The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People by Stephen Covey.  Who wouldn’t want to be highly effective?  I still do.  From this book I learned how to use a calendar to organize my life.

Yes, I make lists of goals and tasks but those lists don’t have any meaning until they show up on my calendar.  I use my calendar for EVERYTHING -  deadlines; meetings; birthdays; anniversaries; writing goal; when to take out the recycling and trash receptacles; my day for grocery shopping; picking up meds at Walgreens.  I keep my calendar on my phone so that it is with me at all times.

As cornovirus spread the rules for social activity became more draconian by the day.  At first events of 250 people were cancelled; then 200 then it plummeted to 50 then 10.  The final step was to just stay home only go out among people for food and medicine.
With each guideline I removed items from my calendar – meetings, my grandson’s birthday, doctor appointments.  Nothing took these items place and my calendar was filled with white space.  White space became a metaphor for an empty life.
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I have developed a fear of white space.  I hope I can begin filling in those spaces soon and get my life back.